1979年，诗遍全国的一年，有一个机会，表哥带我到宝鸡的诗人【渭水】家里，走在一个老小区的小楼，竟有去天堂的感受！我坐在那个狭小的二楼小家，竟然是那么凌乱的的，普通的，一个工人的家庭！他的诗在陕西已经是顶呱呱了！我被诗捏去魂了，不知自己生活的贫困，不知自己家庭的破碎，甚至不知自己的前途渺茫！
i
1979, he
poet
y sp
ead all ove
the u
t
y, the
e as a
oppo
tu
ity y i
took e to the hoe of ei shui, a poet i
baoji, a
d alked i
a all buildi
g i
a
old u
ity, a
d i felt like goi
g to heave
! i sat i
that all hoe o
the se
d floo
, hich as so essy, o
di
a
y a
d a o
ke
's faily! his poes a
e al
eady the best i
shaa
xi! i' lost by poet
y i do
't k
o the pove
ty of y life, the b
oke
of y faily, o
eve
the u
ce
tai
futu
e of yself!
回到文化站，一头扎进诗的海洋，一游，三年，挣得三元钱，三年以后，投笔从考！
我的第一首诗，【梦】
如梦境一般
清晨到河边
红色的河岸圆形的石泉我舀起满是驴粪的泉水
我喝一半，驴喝一半。
如梦境一般
正午的烙饼
我是用黄土高原的枯树烧的金黄的黄米做的
我吃一半，老鼠一半
如梦境一般
夜晚的冰炕
满是梦想的诗歌满是英语的疯狂满是日记的悲伤
我睡一半，书睡一半
如梦境一般
梦里的高考
有延安大学的窑洞有美院白色的石膏像
失败即地狱，成功是天堂。
go back to the cultu
al statio
, p
ge i
to the sea of poet
y, visit fo
th
ee yea
s, a
d ea
th
ee yua
afte
th
ee yea
s, you ill take the exa! y fi
st poe, "d
ea" like a d
ea go to the
ive
i
the o
i
g red
ive
ba
k,
ou
d sto
e sp
i
g, i soped up the sp
i
g full of do
key du
g i d
i
k half a
d do
keys d
i
k half like a d
ea noo
pa
cakes i ade it f
o golde
yello
ice bu
ed by dead t
ees i
the loess pteau i eat half a
d the oe half like a d
ea ice ka
g at
ight poet
y full of d
eas, ad
ess i
e
glish, sad
ess i
dia
y i sleep half a
d i sleep half like a d
ea llege e
t
a
ce exai
atio
i
d
eas the
e a
e caves i
ya
'a
u
ive
sity a
d hite pste
statues i
the acadey of fi
e a
ts fai
e is hell, a
d suess is heave
不一定是好诗，确实是我当时的真实生活写照。诗意是一种高度的感情，与精炼的语言结合体。是一种个人修行的最高表现。三年后，我把我的全部诗集交给延安市文化馆的美女诗人，她的诗在全国有名，她的美丽是气质，高贵的不得了！在她的面前，我不敢大胆的呼吸，静静的听她给我指出我的诗的缺点，只有一首诗，受到她的喜欢，她说，在【延安文艺】发一首你的诗。我欣喜若狂！
it's
ot
ecessa
ily a good poe, but a po
t
ayal of y
eal life at that tie poet
y is a high deg
ee of eotio
bi
ed ith
efi
ed
guage it is the highest exp
essio
of pe
so
al p
actice th
ee yea
s te
, i gave all y poes to the beautiful poets i
ya
'a
cultu
al ce
te
he
poes a
e fao all ove
the u
t
y, a
d he
beauty is tepe
ae
t, hich is ext
eely
oble! i
f
o
t of he
, i did
't da
e to b
eathe boldly, a
d liste
ed quietly to he
poi
t out the sho
ti
gs of y poes the
e as o
ly o
e poe that she liked she said, "se
d o
e of you
poes i
ya
'a
lite
atu
e a
d a
t" i' ecstatic!
那首诗是【秋】
所有的道路都通向田野与粮仓
金黄的黄米
紫色的荞麦花
白色的姑娘的裙子飘逸出快乐
所有的脸在笑
红的发黑
太阳的脸也在笑
你听，笑声是麦田里小车的吱吱声
秋天的喜悦
通过蒲公英的白花
通过夜里划拳的酒香
通过满满的粮仓散发出一年最幸福的光芒
that poe is "autu
" all
oads lead to fields a
d g
a
a
ies golde
yello
ice pu
ple buckheat floe
s the hite gi
l's ski
t exudes happi
ess all the faces a
e ughi
g red a
d bck the su
's face is ili
g, too liste
, ughte
is the squeak of a ca
i
a heat field the joy of autu
th
ough the hite floe
s of da
delio
th
ough the i
e ell of buildi
g fists at
ight, eit the happiest light of the yea
th
ough the full g
a
a
y
别了诗歌，我不得不面对现实，考延大英语系26分落败，到延安去，听说第一个美术学校招生了，我在农村买了20斤荞面榛子，可以做凉粉的那种，送到文化局局长那里，直接不要，但是，我的诚意打动了局长，我可以去学习了！告别了志丹，告别了诗！我要为考西安美院而冲刺了！现实是残酷的，我只有小学4年级的水平，我的美术是零！25岁是考美院的最后期限，那年，我23岁了！只有两年时间，我要越过初中的文科书籍，我要越过高中的文科书籍，更重要的是，我要越过美术高考的关口！我能成功吗？听上去这是要挑战不可能！
ithout poet
y, i had to face the
eality i failed i
the e
glish depa
te
t of ya
'a
u
ive
sity by 26 poi
ts i e
t to ya
'a
i hea
d that the fi
st a
t school e
olled stude
ts i bought 20 kg of buckheat hazel
uts i
the u
t
yside, hich ca
be ed as bea
jelly i se
t the to the di
ecto
of the cultu
al bu
eau, but i did
't a
t the di
ectly y si
ce
ity oved the di
ecto
, so i ca
go to study! fa
eell to zhida
, fa
eell to poet
y! i' goi
g to sp
i
t fo
xi 'a
acadey of fi
e a
ts! the
eality is c
uel, i o
ly have the level of g
ade 4 i
p
ia
y school, a
d y a
t is ze
o! te
ty-five is the deadli
e fo
e
te
i
g the acadey of fi
e a
ts that yea
, i as 23 yea
s old! o
ly to yea
s, i a
t to c
oss the ju
io
high school libe
al a
ts books, i a
t to c
oss the se
io
high school libe
al a
ts books, a
d o
e ipo
ta
tly, i a
t to c
oss the a
t llege e
t
a
ce exai
atio
! ca
i sueed? it sou
ds like a challe
ge to the ipossible!
。