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`There.is.no.shame.in.what.you.are.feeling,.Harry,..said.

Dumbledore.s.voice..`On.the.contrary….the.fact.that.you.can.feel.pain.like.this.is.your.greatest.strength...

Harry.felt.the.white‐hot.anger.lick.his.insides,.blazing.in.the.terrible.emptiness,
.filling.him.with.the.desire.to.hurt.Dumbledore.for.his.calmness.and.his.empty.words..

`My.greatest.strength,.is.it?..said.Harry,.his.voice.shaking.as.he.stared.out.at.the.Quidditch.stadium,.no.longer.seeing.it..`You.haven.t.got.a.clue….you.don.t.know…..


`What.don.t.I.know?..asked.Dumbledore.calmly.
.It.was.too.much..Harry.turned.around,.shaking.with.rage.
.`I.don.t.want.to.talk.about.how.I.feel,.all.right?T.

.Harry,.suffering.like.this.proves.you.are.still.a.man!.This.pain.is.part.of.being.human.=.

`THEN.‐.I.‐.DON.T.‐.WANT.‐.TO.‐.BE.‐.HUMAN!..Harry.roared,.and.he.seized.the.delicate.silver.instrument.from.the.spindlelegged.table.beside.him.and.flung.it.across.the.room;.it.shattered.into.a.hundred.tiny.pieces.against.the.wall.
.Several.of.the.pictures.let.out.yells.of.anger.and.fright,.and.the.portrait.of.Armando.Dippet.said,.`Really!..

`I.DON.T.CARE!..Harry.yelled.at.them,.snatching.up.a.lunascope.and.throwing.it.into.the.fireplace..`I.VE.HAD.ENOUGH,.I.VE.SEEN.ENOUGH,.I.WANT.OUT,.I.WANT.IT.TO.END,.I.DON.T.CARE.ANY.MORE.=.

He.seized.the.table.on.which.the.silver.instrument.had.stood.and.threw.that,.too.
.It.broke.apart.on.the.floor.and.the.legs.rolled.in.different.directions..

`You.do.care,..said.Dumbledore..He.had.not.flinched.or.made.a.single.move.to.stop.Harry.demolishing.his.office..His.expression.was.calm,.almost.detached.
.`You.care.so.much.you.feel.as.though.you.will.bleed.to.death.with.the.pain.of.it...

`I.‐.DON.T!..Harry.screamed,.so.loudly.that.he.felt.his.throat.might.tear,.and.for.a.second.he.wanted.to.rush.at.Dumbledore.and.break.him,.too;.shatter.that.calm.old.face,.shake.him,.hurt.him,.make.him.feel.some.tiny.part.of.the.horror.inside.himself..

`Oh,.yes,.you.do,..said.Dumbledore,.still.more.calmly..`You.have.now.lost.your.mother,.your.father,.and.the.closest.thing.to.a.parent.you.have.ever.known..Of.course.you.care...

`YOU.DON.T.KNOW.HOW.I.FEEL!..Harry.roared..`YOU.‐.STANDING.THERE.‐
.YOU.=.

But.words.were.no.longer.enough,.smashing.things.was.no.more.

help;.he.wanted.to.run,.he.wanted.to.keep.running.and.never.look.back,.he.wanted.to.be.somewhere.he.could.not.see.the.clear.blue.eyes.staring.at.him,.that.


hatefully.calm.old.face..He.turned.on.his.heel.and.ran.to.the.door,.seized.the.doorknob.again.and.wrenched.at.it..

But.the.door.would.not.open.
.Harry.turned.back.to.Dumbledore.
.`Let.me.out,..he.said..He.was.shaking.from.head.to.foot.
.`No,..said.Dumbledore.,.simply.
.For.a.few.seconds.they.stared.at.each.other.
.`Let.me.out,..Harry.said.again.
.`No,..Dumbledore.repeated.
..`If.you.don.t.‐.if.you.keep.me.in.here.‐.if.you.don.t.let.me.=.

`By.all.means.continue.destroying.my.possessions,..said.Dumbledore.serenely..`I.daresay.I.have.too.many...

He.walked.around.his.desk.and.sat.down..behind.it,.watching..Harry.